so yes!
currently i have been going back to school.
have been a very good girl....
SO FAR.
apart from the fact that i have been a bad EXAMPLE as NSL lab manager.
AND...
have been making alot of noise and been very playful during NSL.
so around school,
i have been seeing the MASTERS quiet often.
accompanied charlotte to watch them play football this week.
hahaha.
it was awesome although i spent my entire time dodging flying balls.
STILL...
i got hit in the calf once and it was swollen for awhile.
BUT....
i really should thank those whom i don't know and some of the MASTERS.
CAUSE WHY?!
they were blocking me from flying balls while they were waiting for their turn.
really enjoyed spending time with them
BUT...
i still feel a little awkward around them.
managed to talk to SOME of them.
NEVER THE LESS...
the rest i still feel a little distant.
feel a little out of place when with them.
why am i trying so hard?
i am just making myself feel so tired.

Labels: should i give up or should i just hang in there?

i know i haven been blogging for a very long time. o well. had 3weeks of attachment and then the pass 1week had FOC camp. had lots of fun and memorable memories. miss FOC camp alot. wished it never ended. but i guess its back to school tomorrow. going to miss the MASTERS but the only motivation that is going to keep me fighting to go back to school is that in school, i may get to see them again!!! =)

D-gates oei! "sexy"
D-gates oei! "super sexy"
D-gates oei! "sexy like KAKA OOOOOO!!!"

Labels: D-gates too sexy for this camp. too sexy for this camp camp sexy yeah...

results are finally out. passed all my module but not with very good grades but... o well. at least i made it to year 2 right? okay. so basically today i received my results and then went for facial and had tea at secret recipe. had a slice of chocolate banana cake with ice lemon tea while my mom had cheese cake with white coffee. AWESOME man!!! well... thats basically all i did. HAHA. nothing interesting happened. O YA! i did improve in my results so my mom said for the upcoming 2010羅志祥舞法舞天3D Show World Live Tour - 新加坡站, she is willing to pay for me. hehe. happy pretty much because...i still owe her two months of monthly allowance for my EOS canon 500D camera.

Labels: i'm still missing "baby face"

suppose to go out but somehow i have no mood so... here i am stoning again!!! this is also what i did yesterday cause i also never go out. feel kind of sick this is the last week of holiday. SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO ATTACHMENT!!! i do not know why but this time round, i'm not looking forward to attachment and i feel sick just thinking about it. it never use to be like this. maybe its cause i'm no longer attached to the same ward? but it cannot be. i know i'll still be the same even if i was attached back to the same ward. URGH!!! i'm hating this feeling!!! i just want my holiday back!!!

Labels: i want to be left alone to stone

so it has been pass two days going to three since "baby face" left. met up with three other SFC-ians for dinner at T3 for POPEYES. woah!!! i think it was....kind of too A. especially me. every table we sat next to had KIDS!!! haha. i'm sorry if i have been such a bad influence. but i'm just being...ME! never laugh so hard for such a long time. today, i finally released the inner child i have been keeping in me for a very long time. felt so good yet i have to admit, heard lots of stuff about "baby fats" and i feel kind of disturbed. i feel kind of sad things are like that but what can i do or say? it already happened. am trying not too think too much cause there is a certain image of "baby face" and "father face" i want too keep.

heard about some particular "fagot" too. GOSH!!! HE IS SUCH A BAD INFLUENCE!!! i really hate knowing "baby face" and "father face" are hanging out with him. it just pisses me off hearing what he did. i really DO NOT have any good impression or image of him. to me, he do not deserve the ststus and FAME given to him!!! one day if he ever were to chance upon this, i would just like to say, "i really hope the higher you climb, the harder you fall!!! i really do not like you and i wish you will lose everything you got and never get back up because you deserve it and trust me, i am someone who will dare say this...IN YOUR FACE!!!"

urgh! feel so much better but still so pissed off knowing such people exists. he contributed to partly why i feel so disturbed now. but i seriously do not want to think about it anymore. i feel as though i'm losing "baby face" and "father face". i really do not want that to happen.

Labels: feeling disturbed and not wanting to face the thuth

its been slight pass one day since "baby face" left. feel so empty all of a sudden. its like something is missing. suddenly i don't have the no mood to do anything. since the time he left, i haven been doing anything. just stoning all the time. i know he will be coming in a couple of months time but the thought of him coming and then leaving AGAIN just makes me feel even worst. i wonder when will i grow up. "baby face" have been gone for just slightly more then a day but throughout the whole day, i keep thinking of questions like...

what are you doing?
are you tired?
hows your throat?
having enough rest?
have you been having your meals?
why do you need to diet when you are already so skinny?
where you happy when you were here?
do you remember me?
.
.
.

and i have lots to say to him. like...

you were great the pass few days.
i feel proud of you.
do take care of yourself.
i hope you can stay longer.
i am looking forward to the day you will come again.
i hope you remembered me.
.
.
.

shall stop my nonsense. feel so moody. okay so i never buy the EOS canon 1000D. instead i bought the EOS canon 500D. love it pretty much. brought it to E-awards and also to send "baby face" off. o man. took so many pictures of "baby face" with the camera. just looking at the pictures and videos is enough to make me smile to myself and also feel my heart drop to the bottom of my stomach. i hate this feeling. how long will it last? i am beginning to lose it just thinking of "baby face".

Labels: i miss "baby face"

woke up early today and left for the airport at 945AM to meet adeline and see 小鬼. was quiet laughable when i saw zhi xuan, hui ting, steph...etc there. accidentally bumped into zhi xuan at T2's singpost then when over to T1 to wait. got wacked by her so many times cause apparently she claims that i never "jio" her to go out when her school is just next to mine!!! haha. okay so fine. i close one eye! forgive and forget! then, we waited so far away from those who also went to see 小鬼. met the rest. 1205PM, EVA AIR (BR225) finally touched down. saw him collect his luggage and then waited for him to come out.

seriously.... o my guan ying ma!!!
HE IS SO DARN CUTE!
HIS DIMPLES MAKE HIM LOOK SO CUTE!
THE WAY HE DRESS IS SO ORDINARY!
HE CARRY HIS OWN BAG!
HIS OUTFIT SO HOLE-Y AND CUTE!
THE WAY HE SMILE SO CUTE!
THE WAY HE WAVE SO CUTE!
THE WAY HE TALK SO CUTE!
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AND I LOVE HIS HAIR STYLE!

took a couple of pictures then headed to the IT fair. AND YES! DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THAT. i only know WHAT THE.... AM I DOING IN HELL EVEN BEFORE I DIE?!?!?!
shall not elaborate or think about it because i have a long day ahead of me later. so adeline and i headed off to bugis after IT fair to attend 小鬼签唱会. o ya! i also met zhi lin at bugis with...... HOWEVER, it rain awhile but nothing could stop us from supporting him! ahahaha. and yes... i can really just get on with this again. :D

seriously.... o my guan ying ma!!!
HE IS SO DARN CUTE!
HIS DIMPLES MAKE HIM LOOK SO CUTE!
THE WAY HE DRESS IS SO ORDINARY!
HE CARRY HIS OWN BAG!
HIS OUTFIT SO HOLE-Y AND CUTE!
THE WAY HE SMILE SO CUTE!
THE WAY HE WAVE SO CUTE!
THE WAY HE TALK SO CUTE!
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AND I LOVE HIS HAIR STYLE!

so now i'm going to turn in soon because... I'M GOING TO THE E-AWARDS LATER AND I'M GOING TO SEE 小鬼 AGAIN!!! I FEEL SO EXCITED!!! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM PERFORM AGAIN AND ALSO SEE HIM RECEIVE HIS AWARD!!! he really deserve it and i know he will achieve more in time to come. so proud of him.


......................MORE UPDATES OF 小鬼 THE NEXT FEW POSTS.........................

Labels: 我該當個背叛者嘛？