results are finally out. passed all my module but not with very good grades but... o well. at least i made it to year 2 right? okay. so basically today i received my results and then went for facial and had tea at secret recipe. had a slice of chocolate banana cake with ice lemon tea while my mom had cheese cake with white coffee. AWESOME man!!! well... thats basically all i did. HAHA. nothing interesting happened. O YA! i did improve in my results so my mom said for the upcoming 2010羅志祥舞法舞天3D Show World Live Tour - 新加坡站, she is willing to pay for me. hehe. happy pretty much because...i still owe her two months of monthly allowance for my EOS canon 500D camera.

Labels: i'm still missing "baby face"

suppose to go out but somehow i have no mood so... here i am stoning again!!! this is also what i did yesterday cause i also never go out. feel kind of sick this is the last week of holiday. SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO ATTACHMENT!!! i do not know why but this time round, i'm not looking forward to attachment and i feel sick just thinking about it. it never use to be like this. maybe its cause i'm no longer attached to the same ward? but it cannot be. i know i'll still be the same even if i was attached back to the same ward. URGH!!! i'm hating this feeling!!! i just want my holiday back!!!

Labels: i want to be left alone to stone

so it has been pass two days going to three since "baby face" left. met up with three other SFC-ians for dinner at T3 for POPEYES. woah!!! i think it was....kind of too A. especially me. every table we sat next to had KIDS!!! haha. i'm sorry if i have been such a bad influence. but i'm just being...ME! never laugh so hard for such a long time. today, i finally released the inner child i have been keeping in me for a very long time. felt so good yet i have to admit, heard lots of stuff about "baby fats" and i feel kind of disturbed. i feel kind of sad things are like that but what can i do or say? it already happened. am trying not too think too much cause there is a certain image of "baby face" and "father face" i want too keep.

heard about some particular "fagot" too. GOSH!!! HE IS SUCH A BAD INFLUENCE!!! i really hate knowing "baby face" and "father face" are hanging out with him. it just pisses me off hearing what he did. i really DO NOT have any good impression or image of him. to me, he do not deserve the ststus and FAME given to him!!! one day if he ever were to chance upon this, i would just like to say, "i really hope the higher you climb, the harder you fall!!! i really do not like you and i wish you will lose everything you got and never get back up because you deserve it and trust me, i am someone who will dare say this...IN YOUR FACE!!!"

urgh! feel so much better but still so pissed off knowing such people exists. he contributed to partly why i feel so disturbed now. but i seriously do not want to think about it anymore. i feel as though i'm losing "baby face" and "father face". i really do not want that to happen.

Labels: feeling disturbed and not wanting to face the thuth

its been slight pass one day since "baby face" left. feel so empty all of a sudden. its like something is missing. suddenly i don't have the no mood to do anything. since the time he left, i haven been doing anything. just stoning all the time. i know he will be coming in a couple of months time but the thought of him coming and then leaving AGAIN just makes me feel even worst. i wonder when will i grow up. "baby face" have been gone for just slightly more then a day but throughout the whole day, i keep thinking of questions like...

what are you doing?
are you tired?
hows your throat?
having enough rest?
have you been having your meals?
why do you need to diet when you are already so skinny?
where you happy when you were here?
do you remember me?
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and i have lots to say to him. like...

you were great the pass few days.
i feel proud of you.
do take care of yourself.
i hope you can stay longer.
i am looking forward to the day you will come again.
i hope you remembered me.
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shall stop my nonsense. feel so moody. okay so i never buy the EOS canon 1000D. instead i bought the EOS canon 500D. love it pretty much. brought it to E-awards and also to send "baby face" off. o man. took so many pictures of "baby face" with the camera. just looking at the pictures and videos is enough to make me smile to myself and also feel my heart drop to the bottom of my stomach. i hate this feeling. how long will it last? i am beginning to lose it just thinking of "baby face".

Labels: i miss "baby face"

woke up early today and left for the airport at 945AM to meet adeline and see 小鬼. was quiet laughable when i saw zhi xuan, hui ting, steph...etc there. accidentally bumped into zhi xuan at T2's singpost then when over to T1 to wait. got wacked by her so many times cause apparently she claims that i never "jio" her to go out when her school is just next to mine!!! haha. okay so fine. i close one eye! forgive and forget! then, we waited so far away from those who also went to see 小鬼. met the rest. 1205PM, EVA AIR (BR225) finally touched down. saw him collect his luggage and then waited for him to come out.

seriously.... o my guan ying ma!!!
HE IS SO DARN CUTE!
HIS DIMPLES MAKE HIM LOOK SO CUTE!
THE WAY HE DRESS IS SO ORDINARY!
HE CARRY HIS OWN BAG!
HIS OUTFIT SO HOLE-Y AND CUTE!
THE WAY HE SMILE SO CUTE!
THE WAY HE WAVE SO CUTE!
THE WAY HE TALK SO CUTE!
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AND I LOVE HIS HAIR STYLE!

took a couple of pictures then headed to the IT fair. AND YES! DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THAT. i only know WHAT THE.... AM I DOING IN HELL EVEN BEFORE I DIE?!?!?!
shall not elaborate or think about it because i have a long day ahead of me later. so adeline and i headed off to bugis after IT fair to attend 小鬼签唱会. o ya! i also met zhi lin at bugis with...... HOWEVER, it rain awhile but nothing could stop us from supporting him! ahahaha. and yes... i can really just get on with this again. :D

seriously.... o my guan ying ma!!!
HE IS SO DARN CUTE!
HIS DIMPLES MAKE HIM LOOK SO CUTE!
THE WAY HE DRESS IS SO ORDINARY!
HE CARRY HIS OWN BAG!
HIS OUTFIT SO HOLE-Y AND CUTE!
THE WAY HE SMILE SO CUTE!
THE WAY HE WAVE SO CUTE!
THE WAY HE TALK SO CUTE!
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AND I LOVE HIS HAIR STYLE!

so now i'm going to turn in soon because... I'M GOING TO THE E-AWARDS LATER AND I'M GOING TO SEE 小鬼 AGAIN!!! I FEEL SO EXCITED!!! CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM PERFORM AGAIN AND ALSO SEE HIM RECEIVE HIS AWARD!!! he really deserve it and i know he will achieve more in time to come. so proud of him.


......................MORE UPDATES OF 小鬼 THE NEXT FEW POSTS.........................

Labels: 我該當個背叛者嘛？

finally found my 白馬王子 (KAY WEE) but had to leave cause today was my last day. i'm seriously damn sad. i have to leave just when we were beginning to get use to each other.

i miss.....
the way you look at me from far.
the way you wave "hi" or "bye" to me.
the way you hold my hand and walk with me.
the way you lean on me when watching DVD.
the way you say "OH O".
your cute and chubby face and long eye lashes.

although we did not talk much, your presence and your actions really make my heart melt. i really hope to see you again and when the time comes, i hope you will still remember me. i'm sure there is a reason why i met you. you came into my life and now you leave but your footprints will always be there in my heart. I WILL ALWAYS MISS YOU KAY WEE!!! =(

anyway, i going to see 小鬼 later.



kind of looking forward. hope to take lots of photos. i also hope to get my very own CANON EOS 1000D camera at the IT fair tomorrow.

Labels: times that i will always treasure

so we are currently into the second week off my holidays. the first week was nothing but catching up with my secondary school friends. watched lots of movies such as valentine's day, Percy Jackson and the lightning thief, Alice in wonderland(3D), dear John and hot summer days. had lots of fun hanging out with my friends.

so, on to explaining why my blog title is called "RELEASING THE CAVE WOMAN IN ME." i gave it this name because the pass two days, my house wireless was down. thus, my house phone was also down. there was practically nothing for me and my brother to do as the computer is also so called "useless". all i did was sleep. =X

have been helping out at "The Spastic Children's Association School" which provides special education for over 250 children with Cerebral Palsy and related condition between the ages of 5 and 18. din't know it could be so much fun. the kids there are so ADORABLE!!! had so much fun and although it is just 2hours 30minutes, i really learned a lot from this experience. really looking forward to my next few visits. =D


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Labels: always be content with what you have

i have decided to blog every night (whenever i can) before i sleep!!!

i'm so happy! finally got to meet up with zhi lin. it has been super duper long since i last met up with her. so many things have happen that i'm unaware off. i feel so bad. as a friend i think i should have care more about what is happening in my friends' life. even if i'm unable to help, the least i hope to do is be there for them. going out with her makes me feel so different from when i go out with "YOU PEOPLE". it has been so long and when we see each other, we never fail to have endless talks. be it about school, our lives or even guys.

so many years have passed but its like nothing changed. we are still all giggly and childish even at the slightest thing. she is still the same. all giggly (at other people's expense). i suddenly feel i miss secondary school days a whole lot. in polytechnic, nothing is the same. even the people i mix with is not the same as those i so called "grew up" with.

i love those i "grew up" with.
i miss those i "grew up" with.
i miss times i spent with those i "grew up" with.
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this list is never going to end. cause why? my appreciation to them is endless and i really miss them to bits. <3

Labels: missing secondary school days

woohoo~ i'm so happy i finally got the time to pamper my hair. when to do 3hours of re-bonding today. but i really think i need to pamper my throat instead.

i think all this late night is really making me sick. feel really really bad the whole day. hot and cold on and off, can't stop coughing, can't eat or drink, can't laugh out loud, can't sneeze, can't talk what more about screaming?. all this actions are making my throat hurt. so many times i laughed out loud and next thing you know, i'm coughing. o wait! even without laughing i am already coughing. tried talking out loud a couple of times to cover everything up but it immediately made me shut up. for ONCE i'm super duper quiet and less active. took my temperature and it read 37.7 degrees. my throat is KILLING ME!!!

okay. so i saw "M!U6" online again. tried talking but no response. forget it. somehow, i just get this feeling i'm annoying you. so...i'm going to stop talking. i've already stop talking...because i can't talk. HAHA. okay. lame joke in the middle of something serious. i know. PAI SEI! so back to topic....YA! THATS IT! conclusion, i'm not talking to you anymore. THANKS AH!

P.S. if i ever have to read this now, i think someone can just come kill me. all i can do is just whisper.

o! by the way...i almost forgot. if you ever see this (which i doubt you will), happy birthday teo shitian.

Labels: whispering holds me back from expressing myself

FINALLY...the exams are over. never knew 1 day i'll be saying this but...I MISS SLEEPING. haha. haven been sleeping during the exam period. every night study till about 500AM then got ready to go for exams. stressed out pretty much. have been going out practically everyday ever since exams ended. going to pamper myself later. going to rebond my hair and give it some tender loving care. haha. never knew i'll be saying this too but...i've been kind of bored ever since exams ended cause i've got nothing to study or do!!! got to go find some things to do before i become lazy. meeting up with lots of people soon.

met: christina
meeting: geraldine, zhi lin, clare, adeline, jovian, audrey...etc.

before i forget, i managed to talk to "M!U6" a couple of times. haha. i think he is becoming cuter and cuter. gave him nicknames too... "BARNEY" and "EYWA". LOL. okay. so i haven been talking to him for 2days. kind of miss the feeling but o well. i'm just glad i even had the chance to talk to him. din't know he is so lame BUT... BUT... BUT...adorable. =) will never forget some of the things he said. haha. that reminds me. i've got to get rid of my eye-bags before i see him. or he is so going to laugh at me. ahahaha. love his small eyes. love it when he smiles and his eyes just become slits. SO ADORABLE!!! okay. i just saw you online. OMG!!! should i talk to you? or should i give it a miss? lets just give it a miss? i'm happy the way things is already. would really love to thank you for making me happy even if it din't last long. =) if not for you, i would not have been motivated to study during my exam period. your 1 sentence "YOU CAN DO IT" really motivated and meant a lot to me. every single thing you said and every single time we spent together (although back then you din't know me) is deeply engrave into me. to you it may not mean anything but to me, it means everything. =)

Labels: FREEDOM =)